its late and i'm feeling lonely

so, it's late, and for no particular reason i'm feeling lonely...
like the romantic sorta lonely, like the I wish i had someone to hold right now sorta lonely. I'm not that discontented with my life in fact things are going pretty well... maybe its just cuz i stayed up so late, idkk.... maybe i stayed up so late cuz i'm lonely
this is not a coherrent post, but just me rambling..... i want a bf... or at least someone to care for. i really am lacking physical companionship right now and am getting pissed about it. Prob is I cant find anyone that is a) attractive enough and b) stable enough and c) not straight for me to have a relationship with.
Which is why i just wanna hook up with guys at times... or at least go make out with a bunch... but the prob with that is that i'll probs end up hurting people. people always fall for me too quickly and then things get awkward. i hate hurting people. that and i'll feel slutty... but hell maybe i just gotta forget about feeling slutty for a bit. idk, i'm very conflicted.
anyways, i'm gonna go try and sleep. this sorta thing doesnt usualy happen to me, especially lately, but i'm just venting some emotions
jordy