Things That Piss me OFF

1. Most Christians

by most Christians I really mean most Christians that I'm around. They are hypocritical, unthoughtful, unreflective, and self-righteous sons and daughters of bitches. The offspring of Babylon if you will (pardon the biblical reference).

Ok maybe I'm being a little reactionary, but have patience with me... I'm in a figurative shit hole.

A lot of people at this school have been raised in Christendom--that beast which has created a set of orthodoxical dogmas and orthopraxical expectations, which serve more to justify a white, heterosexual, American, and middle class lifestyle rather than actually do justice to the message of the bible.

NO one dare question any position or lifestyle, not because it's wrong to do so, but because it's so against the norm that Christendom has come to accept as objectively and universally true.

And homosexuality.... that's right out of the fucking question. If i stood up in an assembly said 'i'm gay' people could handle that, because they would dismiss me as a sinner and refer me to counseling. However, if i stood up and said 'I'm gay and there's nothing wrong with it' people would be so awestruck and dumbfounded they wouldn't even be able to speak. I would not be referred to counseling, instead everyone would just go on talking as if I said nothing. I'd be ignored because they'd consider me insane. I might as well say, 'i believe in purple unicorns'...Both statements have similar truth value for many Christians here.

2. Christians censoring shit

My school blocks some websites: File sharing sites, porno sites, and, most recently, gay networking sites.

I joined a decent networking site and was just looking to meet some people. I'm not looking to hookup with anyone, just meet people... who knows, maybe fall in love... jk

but yea so now that site is blocked by my school
It wasn't even a sketchy site. No nudes no nothing... just gay guys trying to befriend each other.

here's what gets me, i think they blocked it after it started getting hits from my computer. They probably saw this site was getting hits and then were like, 'shit can't let the faggots meet eachother!!!' ass holes

so i'm probably being monitored who knows... this site might be next

they won't stop me though... internet is everywhere.


3. the fact that if I did happen to meet a gay guy here nothing will come of it

So.... there's this super cute guy in one my classes. really sweet. I'll write more about him latter. But i have decent reason to assume he's gay or at least interested in me.

Here's the thing though: as long as i'm in this atmosphere nothings gonna come of it because it's not like I can just walk up and be like 'so... are you gay' and even if something did happen, it'd have to happen underground. What bullshit.
Apparently fantasy is far as one can get under this oppressive regime...




allright there are more things that frustrate me, but i've gotta go.


an underground and frustrated queer,

Jordo