So yea, havent done a post in a while. I dont know what it is but sometimes i just have nothing to write.... or if i do i'm too exhausted to get it out.
I've been working like crazy last couple weeks... im so burnt out all the time. And on top of that ive been working out like mad. I'm up to 207 on a good day, so that's pretty awesome. Don't be jealous its all muscle lol.
So yea on that note... i've been approached to be a model on two seperate occasions by two separate people this weekend... its really weird. And its not the first time this has happened to me. Im not saying this to brag just thought id share it. If anything i have low self esteem with regards to my looks so I'm more surprised than I am bragging.
I was working at the restaurant this weekend when a lady approached me and said that I shouldn't be working my job and that i was too good for it and didnt belong there. So yea she has a friend who's a super model and she gave me her number. And then tonight i got approached by a guy who co-owns a modeling business when i was out at a bar...
yea... ne ways... its sorta weird and im not an exhibitionist or anything. But it's got me thinking that if I can actually make decent money doing modeling why shouldnt I? it'd beat the hell out of my jobs right now haha. And i love working out so If i could basically get paid to do that thatd be sweet. Its definitely not a long term fix or anything, just an option.
so enough about my modeling career and enough bragging...
all that stuff aside my life feels really boring and lonely lately. Living with the rents suuucccckkss. for no other reason than that Im alone all the time. Im not on the same sleep sched as my rents and its not like were like best buds so I dont really get companionship from them. My little bros cool and all but i barely see him. So when i wake up I'm alone, when i get back from work i talk to my rents a little and then they go to bed and then I'm alone... so I'm like always alone unless i intentionally seek friends out.
It was so much easier when i was at school playing rugby and was on campus. People were around me everywhere and friends were easy to visit. Now its redic hard to see people.
I also want a bf... I think thatd help a lot. I'm just sick of feeling a lone in this world. I can do it by myself, and have done so for a long time, but I'm tired of it. I want to have friends that live closer to me and also to have a bf i can cuddle with up at the end of the day.
alright im tired and need to drink water, I'll post later this week
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Woooah there heffer, come back down to earth. JK
Why not look into modeling? It can't hurt to find out more.
It's tough to be alone, even living with your family feels alone. One way to find a boyfriend would be to join a gay sports team or league, if there are some in your area.
Well, it can't hurt to try modeling. I have no idea how steady the work is, and I think you'd be wise not to quit your current job before you're sure how much you'll be earning. (Not "You could make …" but how much they promise at what rate.) Of course, if you do quit, it shouldn't be too hard to go back to working at a restaurant if you need to.
The other thing to keep in mind is that modeling is a career that is very much limited by your appearance. IOW, as you age visibly, the work diminishes. So if you make big bucks, be sure to save a lot of it for when you won't be making so much. And make preparations to move into another career when your modeling days are over.
But if you are successful at it, you can probably go a good way toward providing for your retirement.
As for loneliness, the only cure is to be with other people, and the best way to be with other people is to be engaging in an activity you enjoy.
haha, i miss my restaurant job... currently I'm finishing my degree in something I absolutely hate (and have hated for the past 2 years but can't transfer because its a special program) so now i'm paying down student loans (a pittance because of our low tuition, but still more money than i'm likely to see from an actually rewarding job).
If you can model why the why not? Just don't go the Kate Moss way (with the coke and the skinny)
Modeling sounds great but do some research. Ask the agency maybe to put you in contact with someone local who worked for them 3 or 5 years ago and is now out of the business. Or something like that. I have the impression the lower echelons of that industry are a bit dicey. Like not getting paid, signing a bad contract. Is there an entertainment law firm where you can get advice from the most junior associate? Or look for gay law firms. There should be some there.
Thanks for posting. I wondered what happened to you.
Hang in there.
Did you ever come out to Aaron?
The best to you,
steevo
Feeling alone is hard. But it can be healing. Don't avoid it if you can, embrace it. There will be a time when you won't be alone anymore. You will find the perfect guy and your realtionship can be healthy. By being alone you grow within yourself and you learn to be alone. Its hard to learn to be alone, most don't unless they are forced.
i think it'd be good to look into modeling! especially if you were approached by two separate people. but i agree with above comments - do some research before you agree to anything. it seems the modeling industry can be pretty trick and a lot of the time, models are the victims.
regarding wanting a bf, just try and get out more? i like what 'green and purple' said - to join a gay sports league/team. that would greatly enlarge the number of people (especially gay guys who have the similar interests) you encounter.
have a nice weekend :)
One thing about the modeling industry, though, you could get more work (like in the millions runway stuff) if you're more of the slimmer type. Too buff and you'd be relegated to modeling for fitness centers and equipment. Though that could work if you don't plan to stay in it for long.
you should def consider the modeling thing. it pays really well for the amount of time you work. i have a friend who models for gilt groupe and then works at a hotel doing banquets and events on the side. he also does freelance architecture. you should just move to new york and try to find an agent! just gotta get out of the rents house. i have 3 roommates that i see pretty often, and i still feel lonely. later.
Hey just read your latest blog and I am now immediately a follower :).
Life can be tricky, especially when you feel like you have to split your life between work and family. I was in your situation a lot as like you I am living with my parents while I am working on gettin my own house.
I love my parents very much, but we aren't on the same wavelength so spending time with them can be very draining, and when I'm not at home I am either at work or with the bf.
I think the best thin for you to do is have a few nights out, make some time for you to catch up with friends or make the effort to find new ones. I'd you don't feel isolated I am sure you will feel tonnes better. You never know you might even find a great guy in the meantime :).
Btw when I comes to modelling take it from someone who did the bad kind of modelling( involving a lot less clothes :s) if you are going to do it be positive and focus on yourself, a lot of male models I have met are insanely competitive and more than a little vain, :s
anywho I hope this helps.
Scott xx
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