So there's this guy I've been seeing around the gym lately. Cute guy, smaller than me, but really strong... he's so cute. I think i already talked about him in another post. So ne ways, Last night I was like, fuck it, next time I'm at the gym I'm gonna talk to him, strike up a convo or something.
I went to workout tonight and he asked me for a spot and bam, i had my opening. we struck up a convo and he seems like a cool guy... however i found out he has a gf... fuck
I'm pissed. Not big time, just little time-feel like i'm never gonna find a cute guy whos gay, just gonna keep falling for str8 dudes...
I mean theres always the chance that he's gay or bi, but very low... idk...
And even if he is bi he's prbly too closeted to do ne thing... so yea there goes that.
But i bet we'll see eachother around so maybe we can be friends.
uuggghhh hes so cute.... oh well such is life right.
now its awkward cuz i'm like, fuck prbly see him again but dont wanna get to close to someone only to fall for them again. i feel like I'm sick of str8 guys just cuz of the emotional shit that i go thru when i'm around them (or at least ones i like).
but i spose i can desexualize him.... altho that didnt help with aaron
Ne ways... i need a bf so i dont have to worry bout goin after str8 dudes.
I actually just need a bf in general. I'm really lonely in that romantic way and just want to hold some 1...
oh well.
sorry for another boring post about my not so happenin love life
hope ur all doing well
jordy
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5 years ago
7 comments:
that sucks man.
sadly most gay guys seem to fall in the sterotype.
it's kinda hard to find actaul "straight acting" gay guys. a lot claim they are masculine or straight-acting, but few are. at least in my experience.
they are out there though. well at least one. haha :D
Don't apologize for your post, Jordan. Most of us understand. I remember the loneliness of wanting someone to be with, to hold. Me telling you that it will happen doesn't help you now, but it will happen.
I don't know if you've explored gay sports groups in your area. Many places have bowling (not that I like bowling) leagues, or volleyball, or other sports. I joined Frontrunners, the gay and lesbian runners group, and met lots of nice, athletic guys. Maybe something like that would be a good way to meet guys, and you won't have to wonder if they're straight.
i totally agree with green and purple- join a league! I was having the same problem- I mean ya it's fun going to gay bars with friends sometimes- but ideally i'd rather catch the game on at the sports bar- or playing a sport. so i joined local gay hockey team- and that is where i wound up meeting my boyfriend. check it out- combining being on a team, with a group of like minded gay athletes is pretty awesome.
You should come to my gym instead.
http://jatgab.blogspot.com/2008/01/you-can-be-straight-but-you-cant-be-old.html
http://www.mspfrontrunners.org/
I bet u somewhere in that gym there is a cutee thinking the exact same of u.
keep faith
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