A lot to catch up on

Hey there folks,
It's been a while, kinda fell behind in my blog. So much has happened in the last week or two that I have thought about posting, however I ended up not posting any of it because I got overwhelmed with how long I would have had to spend witting said post.

So I've decided to write about what's been going on but I'll be doing it in several short posts rather than a large one.

So... to catch you up to speed...
I've started dating guys and trying to get more gay friends. As of now the only real avenue I have of meeting guys besides walking into a gay bar is the internet, so I've been on some gay networking sites talking with people and setting dates/hang out times with.
I've decided that I really want to be in a relationship and I figure right now in my life is the perfect time for me to do so. I don't have the pressure of school and I'm free of a lot of people who would look down on me for dating guys. That being said i'm not just looking for anyone and won't be desperately throwing myself at anything with a penis... I suppose my standards are high when it comes to how guys look and, on top of that, a lot of the guys I have met so far I feel are (no offense intended here) more feminine. There's nothing wrong with that, i'm just not into it. Of the gay population there is probably a small percent I'd be into... which is fine, just means I need to be patient and really look around. It also means I need to meet more gay guys cuz they might have friends I'd be into.

so yea I've met three guys so far.
The first was kinda awkward, I met him through a friend I met on a social networking site. We went out to eat and just chatted He was a smart guy, med student, but I was not attracted to him at all... he just didn't do it for me--he wasn't as hot in person as I thought he'd be. He could be a good friend I suppose, but he seemed to be really into me... and I have this thing about how I hate leading people on and get really awkward when they're into me and I'm not into them... so I haven't really talked to him since last week.
I'll write about my second and third dates at another time...

btw i have a date coming up w/ a new guy that i'm pretty stoked for...

anyways peace out
Jordo