A Good Catch is Hard to Find

So yea... was gonna post sooner, but my social life has been hopping lately haha... sorta...

umm last night I drank way too fucking much... I lost count actually... my stomach still hurts from the shit I drank.
Dave and Ben were going out to a gay bar and so was this new dude whos their friend (who might like me)... lets call him A. And then this guy that i mentioned in the last post that likes me was there too... lets call him B
so yea A and B actually had met online before, which was awkward. B came with his friends who are gay, but ended up following me around quite a bit, obvs trying to get closer to me... ahhh... not working for him...

ne ways i didnt have to be up that early today, so i was kinda like in the lets get drunk mood for no specific reason. So was Ben cuz he didnt work either. So him and I got blitzed. Him moreso than I cuz he's smaller, but I was def feeling it.
so yea there was an incident with gin and vodka that I dont really want to dwell on. lets just i drank a couple mixed drinks w/ predominantly gin in it they were pretty strong too...
I hate gin so fucking much, its straight up like drinking a pine tree. I cud like still feel it in me today and felt like a fucking christmas tree the whole day... people shuda been hanging ornaments on me haha. oh and my pee smelled like a boy scout wreath.

I have no idea how i made it thru work 2day... no idea haha

But yea last night was really fun. Oh and the guy i made out with during the summer was there... it was kinda awkward...

so.... to the title of this post, people keep on telling me I'm a good catch... like everyone haha... in blog land and otherwise. last night when Ben was drunk he said something pretty meaningful to me. He sed he respected me for being a virgin and that if i threw away my virginity on an asshole hed be really dissappointed. He told me I'm a good catch and better wait for one likewise. he suggested that my hand is enough for me right now haha.

But yea I think a lot of gay guys have a period where they like hookup with people or at least have at times had sex w/o thinking about it... some of them really regret it and they generally are like really impressed with me and say they're jealous. I mean I kinda am jealous of them cuz i'm so horny a lot and just want that physicality, but I think its good to hear from a friend that I'm a good catch and that I'm valuable as a person... that he wud care enough to tell me not to do something stupid, it meant a lot.
i think his words were something like, "I know you go home feeling horny and lonely and really want a guy, but it'll come to you, you're a lucky guy; good looks, smart, good personality, kind, and good hearted, you deserve someone as good as you. Wait and it'll happen, but dont throw urself away on someone who's not worth it."
Friday night I was hanging with them and was pretty down... I was lonely and like wanting a bf and shit and wasnt very social and i think my friends noticed, people notice that I want that companionship, but am not gonna go sleep around with a bunc o dudes. but yea his words were valuable and shows he's looking out for me.

So yea I mean now I'm just waiting around till i find a good catch haha. I spose I'm starting to be ok with that... i kinda thought that after coming out finding a guy wudnt be hard, that there wud just be quite a few hot, athletic, chill guys for me to date, but that hasnt happened. its hard to find good guys as friends and even harder as partners, but I have hope, i even wrote a song on guitar about it haha.

I'll let y'all know if I ever find that good catch, but till then peace and love bros

Jordy