Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Coming Out After Shock

So....

I came out to my mom.
Like 10 minutes ago

I'm in a state of shock right now

Can't really think straight

It went well

She said she loves me no matter what
and that she just wants me to be happy again

I told her (on the phone) because she was trying to figure out why I am so depressed

I told her i couldn't tell her why i was depressed, and that coming to my uni was the worst decision ever. She cried

then we hung up


then i called her back
and asked her if she would love me no matter what. She said yes.

and told her

So we'll see how my dad takes the news.

I'm scared and in a state of shock right now.

I may be terrified right now, but things may get better.
I guess if you pray, pray that my dad takes the news well... or if you meditate or whatever else people can do...

but seriously..
I am scared shitless and elated at the same time

I'll put up a better post about this whole thing latter


Jordo

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

wow! after that previous post this is about the last thing I would have expected but wow! I'm glad it went well for you - more courage than me!

Anonymous said...

wow just take your time and think through things. it sounds like your mom will be ok with it, it may take some time(she is in shock too) it is a big step. congrats!

Lightning Baltimore said...

Wow! Wonderful reaction and good for you!

Of course you can't think straight . . . remember?

cvn70 said...

JOrdo

I will prat for you and your father being as accepting as your mother

you took a huge step today and i hope it is rewarding for you and the rest of your life.

i am very proud of you fo ryour courage and i hope everyone you know loves and accept you

take care and be safe

bob

Anonymous said...

Shocking, indeed.

But a really really great shock! You're cut out for this gay thing after all. Hold onto the high.

Anonymous said...

Whoo! Go you! I'm thinking of doing a very similar thing soon myself... If I think about it I'll get too scared though.

Steevo said...

Damn! Balls on the table! LOL

As we have discussed, mom prolly knew. Did u swear her to secrecy? Hope not. Let her get dad ready...

Later you can ask her if she suspected all along...

Moms r usually kewl. Dads take longer... sometimes. If he reacts not as well as mom did, be patient. Keep telling him u love him and need his love too. Mom will fix it in time. Let him see the tears. It's really OK!

YAY for you, Jordon.

hugs n luv ya,

steevo
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KUDOS DUDE!!!

D. said...

congratulations! it's adrenaline rushing isn't it??

good luck with the rest of the family :)

Deadwing said...

congratulations! that is a huge step, i wish i had your balls, man. i am really happy for you man. *hugs*

Mr. Urs said...

Great move. Parents is the hardest. I'll keep my fingers crossed and will pray as well.

Anonymous said...

massive hug. Well done. Hugely big step buddy, and we all pray you'll never look back from here.

So proud of you :D

Stephen Chapman said...

I have NO DOUBT that coming out was the best decision you have made.

It's a brave move and you wont regret it!

Stephen

Anonymous said...

A HUGE HUG J! Join the Club!

Yer Dad will likely NOT be as understanding, but he WILL come round.

Hold on to the fact that your doing what millions of us have done before you! You're in the very best of company! Hold me hand.

manxxman said...

Boy, how did I miss this post. I'm very proud of you. You figured out that being depressed and alone it to horrible to keep to yourself. Coming out to your mom was such a brave thing......I'm sure you will never regret the courage it took.

And to all the other guys that post comments on here and are struggling with their coming out process.....it's just that, a process. The time was right for Jordon......your time will come too. Keep your heads up.